Was just getting back into weaving… Sometimes you learn things that you really can live without knowing….. Was weaving cat mats when one of my cats jumped up on the woven part and wanted to be petted. Petted her and while purring she bit me. Cat bites much more dangerous and tend to be infected vs dog bites, sharper and dirtier? My middle and smallest cat is now on Quarantine at home. The greeter cat is “vicious”. Bit me Sunday night at the base of my left thumb, the one with arthritis already present. Hurt like hell, bled and I screamed. Was swollen on Monday, went to get groceries and when we returned there was a streak of red down my wrist, 2 inches or so. Son was going to work. Knew I was in trouble, Off to urgent care I went and they were closed. (Full Moon) By the time I was seen in ER it was now 4 inches long. Knowing my insurance company I agreed to be admitted for twice daily IV antibiotics. They x rayed it, no tooth fragments otherwise it would have been surgery as well. One of the CNA’s complimented me on catching it so soon and main reason I was getting such a good response to the antibiotics.
Widow support groups talk a lot about trigger points. Ok I was an RN, Just watching medical stuff on TV and I have a recurring nightmare. PTSD? I am on the female cancer unit I worked for 5 years in the 80s. I’m the only regular staffer all the rest are pulled from other units or floats. Literally run off my feet. Similar thing happened, I was one of two regular staffers one night.
Trigger #1 I was in a hospital,
#2 In a hall bed in ER in front of where we got my husbands terminal cancer diagnosis the hard way. As my husband snoozed I heard two dr talking in front of the room ” he has a large mass on his kidney and another one on the spine” That poor guy my husband just has Arthritis and Pneumonia. Just what a former nurse who was concerned about privacy wants to learn that: no that is my husband they were so indiscreet about. Terminal he lived 6 weeks after that. Between this and being extremely angry at a certain cat. They asked me a while before they moved me if I was suicidal or homicidal my response was no Cat icidal.
#3 Of course I was admitted to the same floor that my husband was on, slightly larger room. I think I slept 3 maybe 4 hours the 2 nights I was there.
#4 Things at this hospital have not improved I questioned almost every drug given to me. I did forget my phone with my drug list, had no idea I would be admitted. ER and admitting nurse just named the drugs off didn’t ask any dosages. From there they were All wrong, from first night there on. Thought the thyroid drug looked the wrong color, asked wrong dose. Kept trying to give me blood pressure medication twice a day I am only on it once a day. It really wasn’t the nurses fault, they corrected them 5 times in the computer and with the Doctor, that I know of. Computer? Pharmacy? The last morning she named off the drugs before opening them, Thyroid still wrong and a blood pressure pill at the wrong time. I told her don’t bother I will take it when I get home.
ADVOCATE What if you are unconscious? elderly? forgetful? Be with your loved one and ADVOCATE!
Our son brought my kindle in thank goodness at least reading will transport me elsewhere and I am in less pain as well. Now since I have been home I have attempted some knitting but the thumb was at first stiff now sore. I tried a splint last night but helped for awhile but I ended up pulling it off. Very fast music and books now this is a modern achievement I can get behind and support… And Youtube.
Saw a band on “The Late Show” The Revivalists and started listening to them on Youtube. I found “Keep Going” This is the mode I have been in for 0ver 2 years through Dave’s illness and now living without him. Keep Going = Making an effort to live normally in a difficult situation. Believe me it is sometimes a minute to minute effort to keep going. Another is a Willie Nelson song “It’s not Somethin’ you get over but it’s “Somethin’ You Get Through.”
Someday soon Back to sanity and weaving or knitting or?? Meanwhile my Kindle is calling my name.